I used to feel bad for people who were bullied. I thought that it must suck to be picked on. But I never realized just how terrible it is until I felt it myself. To be made fun of for things you can’t control when you do absolutely nothing to instigate it is the worst feeling. How can someone be so mean to you when you’ve never done anything to that person before?
I’ve been trying for the longest time to grow some sort of confidence and to like myself inside and out but it’s so hard when I hear the things that I hear. Everyone tells you to ignore it. That because the person who says it is mean and spiteful, the words they are saying mustn’t be true. But just because someone is an asshole and a bully doesn’t mean that what they have to say is false.
I don’t know what I did, or what I keep doing, but no matter what I keep getting kicked down. And with no one really backing me up, I feel so bad all the time. I just don’t know what to do anymore..